How We Made It Home – Sahana Mukherjee

How we made it home: I

On the first night it rained so little

that we slept like coarse rags, worn

out at one corner of a city apartment

balcony barely to be brought back inside

again if not to wipe off an accidental

stain on ivory-tinted floor tiles on

which even the least mindless of a

footstep can leave behind a shadow —

especially yours – but never a mark

so stubborn – like mine – that it stays.

How we made it home: II

When the light flickers at dawn

and the crows fluster at its drudgery

and we change our sleep from east

to west, and the heat swoops down

like revenge, and the sweat soaks into

our clothes and we soak into the sweat,

you twirl in a dream about the afterlife

and twitch for a drop of deliverance

till the clock strikes nine and I’m gone

like the flicker and the fluster, in the rain.

How we made it home: III

After all this while, that last phone call

is like salt on a dead man’s tongue;

neither too much nor too little, but glory

is like that – a touch of grace when spring

is no longer spring and winter no longer

turns blue on the skin; moss repents not

the spade anymore, mud requires no more

digging; it comes only when the season of

harvest is long gone; it comes as isolation;

as the consolation of a hopefully dialled

wrong number, frantically seeking the rain.

Illustration : Suman Mukherjee

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